Not good. The surgery failed Wednesday morning and I’ve been here in the hospital every since. The fukking tumor has the esophagus just too badly blocked for a gastric tube and the swelling is only going to get worse. I’m less than 2 weeks into treatment. So their going to try TPN feeding now directly through the pick line in my arm. It’s basically the same as prenatal feeding. It isn’t really food as you’d get with the gastric tube, just vitamins, minerals and some kind of caloric base. It’s hopefully enough to get me through the treatments to the point where they can rescend the mass and keep going I guess.
I was going to say something else but the morphine and Fenatyl has me too foggy again… I’m just goingto lay back down and look out the hospital room window for awhile. It’s pouring out there.