I appreciate the frank response, man... and I hope you'll be able to hear my frank thoughts about it.
You need to give yerself a pep talk..a locker room pep talk. I have some understanding of the reflux issue, went thru that with my brother a while back. Cancer, and the treatment, do tend to take away some aspects of normal functioning. You have to adapt to changing circumstances.
Case in point...you need to sleep. If that takes a high end bed that you have to buy, order that sumbitch out. No point in attaching a higher priority to the money if you have it now. You have to get thru the short term issue before you need worry about living on a reduced income later.
In my case, I'm now getting disability income. It may not be enough to sustain my former lifestyle, but I don't NEED that former lifestyle since I don't need a front to support the former cash flow. Gonna sell the house and downsize, live cheaper. It'll be fine because I'll still be living well enough. If I choose to keep working I'll have more dough...but I don't HAVE to do that unless it makes sense.
The Fates give us these choices, and we make the best ones we can.
"Ultimately only 3 things matter...how fiercely we love, how gently we live, and how gracefully we let go of things not meant for us."
We are all in your corner, Dingle. Please join us.