I'm back here at Kaiser. I met with my oncologist and am getting ready to start cycle 4 of chemo. 6 hours in this fucking chair in this freezing room. After that I have to wear chemo pump for a week..... Then rinse and repeat.
I've got to make a decision about my oncologist. He's the department head and looked on as one of the top practitioners in the field, but I fear he's losing his grip. He started our consultation speaking in very negative terms.... stating that the chemo wasn't working well, the radiotherapy didn't go well and my only hope was surgery, which I wasn't a candidate for.
The chemo is making me nauseous and tired all over again. It's going to take me awhile to acclimate to these toxins again.
Im going to level with you. While i am currently in remission, my neuriiphis counts have doubled since my last lab work, which is indficative of the csncer fighting hard to return.